CIA --> Epsilon Stories
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Epsilon Stories
August 6, 2020 10:56am
(in progress)
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3yr: Because Epsilon are so important to CIA Director Gina Haspel who’s going this Epsilon Experiment to us, we have to tell everyone about them. Plus it’s a really neat things to have (the positive Epsilon forms).
We’ll try to add stories of other’s experiences of their Epsilon alters here as well as worries, concerns, ect around integration. Integrating and healing is the result of turning an MK ULTRA multi altered person into a single individual. Trauma healing often naturally facilitates this process and alters merge and combine in an organic way. It’s a neat feeling when the shared memories, knowledge and experiences are merged together. There’s more cohesion, understanding, and learning.
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Video: Youtube girl talking about how her fairy Epsilon merged/integrated into her system. "Mistletoe Integrated" video link. Ifs from The Entropy System on youtube. In december of 2019 we watched a lot of D.I.D. (Dissociative Identity Disorder) youtubers and learned a lot about various other aspects of MK ULTRA multiplicity and things that they did to help themselves.
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Our Mermaid Epsilon & Swimming
As part of the “river bathing” spiritual remedy we’ve been doing for the last month, a lot of it meant submerging in the nearby lake. We were nervous about trying this as previously, the pain levels were excruciating when attempted last year. So… Guru helped us more and made it possible this year (2020). (Read more about “River Bathing” in the Spiritual Protection Remedies under Bulletins drop-down menu). Each attempt at submerging in water became more successful and the ability to spend time in the water grew. In the last two experiences, we’ve also been able to do some “swimming”, though its somewhat painful at times.
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This is relevant because we have a mermaid Epsilon alter; she’s lovely and hasn’t had a conscious experience of swimming. So, that’s an added bonus for us doing this remedy; parts of her front occasionally, but with the things that have been done to my 6 alters…I’m unable to force-front myself using sounds so we have to rely on others to assist.
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Our male zeta has begun fusing with the Epsilon more. His perspective is that of a protector role as there are 4 adult females and a younger female child (3yr) that he feels obligated to protect. Recently we’ve learned that giving the Epsilon the things that she wants and likes makes every alter happier too. Her preferences are very lovely and she makes boring things seem fun. Her joy adds a lightness to our “system” of alters that’s needed as the Epsilon Experiment drags on.
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Boy: when swimming recently, I felt her energy as me for a brief moment. It was phenomenal; the water felt amazing, the sensations were incredibly and just being felt so pleasurable. I was stunned actually and had to sit submerged in the shallow end for a while, just to think about how that applied to similar situations. It felt philosophical. I could understand the weight and importance of form. This actually perhaps extends to others like the hybrids, beings, and Meta-Humans as well. It’s a defining feature of who Epsilon are, what makes them so unique. Their non-humanness.
our Epsilon says: it was incredibly lovely that he could experience this directly. One thing I exclaimed while underwater was “I don’t want to loose my form!” I think the “merging” of the boy and I was being done with negative intentions but the positive is so enlightening. His perspective is to give the females in our system what they want in order to be happy as it makes all of us happier. “we all want to be her” is the general consensus, moreso in attitude and joyful countenance (this was achieved after significant trauma healing).
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For the Meta’s, we came to appreciate their uniqueness on a much deeper level. How did the boy “feel” when in the water?
Boy: somehow, it felt way better to be submerged. It was more natural and felt way more pleasurable. There was also a type of pleasant energy that made being in the water feel so lovely. It just felt so good – better than being human. This is why trauma produces Epsilon alters – “to survive, you have to become mythological.” It seems like some people may want an Epsilon alters; no one wants the trauma but the beautiful forms that results are lovely.
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As we sat in the water, we wished we could merge our adult alters and have an adult-epsilon for a while. Especially for surviving this prolonged ordeal, she’s a lovely escape from this reality. I wondered if attempts had been made to trauma-heal and integrate Meta-Humans. I was told that some preferred their alternate forms and now I can understand completely. It just means that family life and worldly things would end indefinitely. The sense of pleasure and enjoyment from being something else just doesn’t compare to being “human.” choices should always be provided to Meta Humans, hybrids and similar about keeping their forms. After a while of living with a reduced trauma load, healing and integrating becomes more natural and less fearful.
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Comments
Please also share your experiences of your Epsilon form or how Epsilon alters assisted you! xo